My view of the train station
is determined by horizontal lines that stretch from one side of the window to
the other: roofs, platforms, strips of paint, railway track. Vertical lines
intersect semi-regularly between the horizontal: drainpipes, brick pillars,
metal posts. Seen only in these terms it appears as an excel spreadsheet with
some of the cells tampered with. The station scrolls left as the
train pulls out.
The man across from me
is writing notes on what looks like the manuscript to a book.
Beginning slowly the
train passes through Chester, westwards: below a bridge, past the blue lid of
the water tower peaking out above the brambles, past allotments, allotments, and
past allotments, each flitting by faster. The trackside thorn bushes blur to
grey streaks.
Everything is grey and
muted. The sky is overcast. The sun behind the clouds is approaching setting.
The colour is drained from everything, save the bold greens of some of the
fields that pass by.
The train moves through,
ditching between hills that duck and climb. The rise and fall of the trackside
mound forms frames that present each landscape.
Contents framed:
1. Green field
containing flock of sheep, dispersed; brown fields; hedgerows and trees bare of
leaves; grassy hills.
2. Muddy field
containing three trees aligned in diminutive order, left to right; grassy
field; wooded patches; wooded hills.
3. Narrow boats in large
square mooring; field containing two caravans; wooded patches; hill with castle
perched on top.
The trackside mounds
flatten, and the perspective opens out. The castle remains visible in the
distance.
I remember seeing this
castle on this journey before. I would have told you it's Beeston castle, but on
this same train once I remember a couple discussing that it wasn’t Beeston. I
took some notes of the journey, though not of that part of the their conversation:
The couple sat across from me are arguing. Something
to do with her parents, something to do with a wedding, and something about
'just being very different people.' He goes to put his arm around her, she
shirks, then they argue for a while longer and he mentions something to do with
Shakespeare.
The tension begins to diffuse when they begin
discussing the food for the wedding.
"Monkfish, prawns or fois gras."
The dust on the window and the monochrome of the
clouded twilight make the images I see through the train window feel as if they
are filtered, overexposed and of poor resolution. The blacks of the shadows are
grey. The whites are flat. The landscape thins. Light thickens.
A great square silhouette of a castle stands on a grey
horizon, its crenulations rubbled across the top like a sandcastle that’s been too
quickly unbucketed.
I finish writing notes
on the castle and look out of the window for a moment. We pass a mobile
home-cum-shop with ‘Beeston Maintenance’ written on its front. I reconsider my
previous line of thought.
Across the table the man
annotates the text I had assumed to be a manuscript. On the paper I can see a
diagram of a bone. ‘University of Liverpool’ is stamped along the edge of the
text. Not the notes to the next Midnight’s Children then.
A pile of old black
rubber tires mounds up against the side of a barn house we pass.
Huge muddy puddles have
gathered in a field, its earth recently turned—the trees and sky the puddles
reflect are in sepia.
We will shortly be
arriving at—Crewe—our final station.
I get up to pack my
things into my bag.
* * * * *
I’ve been aboard the
train from Crewe to London for about ten minutes without knowing what to write.
I write what I see.
The railway track that
runs parallel to this one is clearly defined. The mound beside it, and
everything else, is blurred.
The hills are painted
with the grey film that distance will apply to a landscape. They look like
watercolours on a grey canvas of sky.
Distance can equate to
time in the same way. As things move further into the past this same grey film
daubs itself on our memories. Attempting to focus on individual details—trees,
rocks, faces—we begin to fill in the blanks ourselves. A line in the cliff-face
is a tree perhaps. A resting figure becomes a rock. That smile is no longer
entirely her own.
We enter a tunnel and
the windows flatten to black. Another train thunders past, squares of light
flashing for an instant, then in another beat we leave the tunnel.
We pass a power plant.
Its form is massive, reaching from the bottom to the top of the window frame
that determines my view, huge curved concrete columns.
We pass a field of solar
panels lined like plate mail. I think of Andreas Gursky’s photograph of the
photovoltaic farm. I think of his photographs taken from moving vehicles, Utah
and Tokyo.
“Gursky has described
the relationship between construction, documentation and authenticity in his
work as similar to the way that we might recall a landscape glimpsed from a
moving vehicle: ‘You look out of the window and get an impression, but when you
write it down it will be what you imagine,’ he explains.”
I first wrote this piece
from my notes a little over three months ago. When I published the piece the
server crashed and I was left with fragments of my train ride. I
would glance at my notes and these fragments and attempt to write the journey
again, and each time a new journey would begin to take form.
Looking at the journey
now I notice a number of elements I did not on first writing it.
·
The
power plant mentioned a few lines above is likely the same power plant I see at
the East Midlands Parkway station in ‘Hull to London - Returning’.
·
My
brother and I discussed the castle. There is one near Beeston which is known for
hosting weddings and other events. I dimly recall the couple on the train
discussing this. This recollection could be a total fabrication.
·
The
subject of this piece was always intended to be the inconsistency of memory.
This subject has intensified each time I consider the piece. Each time I find it more difficult to translate this to the reader.
Please consider the
image below. The blurs in the photograph are not the result of a faulty camera.
They are constructed. Each perceived fault is fashioned in order to convey a
message. The faults in this piece are not intentional. However, I believe that
in their inspection they carry messages none-the-less.
I glance out of the train window. And the landscape passes by.
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